Random thoughts for the day

God has shown me some things about selfishness.

I have been very selfish in everything I do.  That has led to a lot of heartache and trouble in my life.  If I put myself first, then God has to be at least second.  It is very hard to put yourself second.  Take driving in to work today.

I was ready to put others first in my drive to work today.  I let several cars cut in front of me and I thought I was doing well not speeding and tailgating the car in front.  I thought, if someone wants to pull in front of me, no big deal.  I will still get to work at the same time.  Then someone did a normal thing, they passed me on the cut over from 71 to Mopac.  For some reason ( likely that I thought she was a rude driver), this really got to me.  I pulled forward and tailgated the person in front and would not let her pull back over. 

I had failed at the first real test God had put in front of me after my resolve to be less selfish. I know now that I was trying to be unselfish for selfish reasons and not to obey God. The key to walking in the light is to obey the Lord and seek his council in everything I do. Being IN Christ is more important than trying to be a good person.


Trying to walk closer with Christ,
RBT